"I'm Aware"

Time has always been a challange for me in my life. A life, shaped by a race among students starts from elemantary school (or primary) makes you think you are part of a competition which forces you to win, or lose.

I've lost so many times..

But strangely, it didn't took so long for me to notice every failure I had faced, was caused a precious expansion in my vision, and above all in my appreciation of life.

Then I realized, it is not our failures or victories that determine our specialy, it is how we "deal" with them.

Every failure, has something inside to teach us. (a very evident stuff from postmodernist approach to spritualism) Anyway, now what I feel is that I haven't lost in any challange. I might have been fallen sometimes but luckily I was aware enough to learn how to stand up over and over again.

Awareness, is the key to salvation.

And once you are aware of some simple things such as;

 we are living in a life which evil is not born, it is only "made". 

Our lives are connected somehow deep within

And every decision we make, can easily affect another's life.

As we notice seeing this dynamic, we do understand more the importance of being a "honest" person.

A person who'd avoid breaking any heart; but giving love to others' hearts instead.

I am about to discover more about these informations, for I've been surrounded such a wonderful circle and I'm so thankful to them.

I am blessed with my family, friends and special soulmates.. :)

My biggest love, is my love to the fact of we are connected and we are one somehow.

And the more we are aware of that, the more we'll change, in a good way.

Peace,

onur

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We are One

It has been a long time since I wrote here. Since I started to write here. We all know every beginning reaches at a point where all facts are determined, and accepted. Does it like that? Is it really that much easy to say that?

"Life" , they say. Is the most undefinable value that's been given to us. Some say, it is an experimental surface that all souls are being tested. Some say, it is just an accident happened it universe and we are living by chance. Some say, it is a miracle when some say it is a reflection of another dimensions.

Some say it is Heaven, some say it is Hell.

What do you call it nowadays? Have you tried to name your life ever? Or did you just stand by and watched what was all happening? Did you stabilize yourself just like the thousands of people near to you? Let us think a little bit more.

When I decided to open this blog, I had no idea about what I was capable to write. Yes, I was a classically-trained pianist SO WHAT? Was that what really needed? I don't think so, so I investigated my deepest thoughts and started to write about "myself". Then I see, it was working (considering this blog was supposed to be a course work as well!)

When I started this virtual diary at the very first time, I was nothing but a freshman in college. It was the beginning of a new era. After so many years of hard work, I was finally had the chance of re-edit and of course, undo things; undo things I didn't want to see in my life. I wanted to be a different person for who I was used to be. So I decided to change.

I never changed.

Yes, I never changed. Even though I wanted to change deeply and so passionate, I noticed the tides of my desires were nothing but my fake reflection. Every change, was leading to the "old me" which made me see I was very lucky. So many people in this world are being diagnosed of "change". They truly want to change until they have nothing left.

Well, some people around me says I am a clever boy. Some say I've accomplished somethings and I am grown up. They are right, I am grown up. Grown up with memories, with experience. What has changed me, was nothing but external effects. What I've been through, was my source of change.

I fell in love once, I felt pain and I was departed.
I felt excluded, felt lonely.
I felt succeeded

I fell far from the apple tree my dears, and I am thankful for it.

I am now in my 3rd year in College and I can't be more thankful for what I have right now. You know what, the time when you learn that you can confine with what you have, you stop being wanting more.

I am blessed with what I have in my Universe.

I am not being over-optimistic my dear. Not at all! I've seen far beyond what they call "optimistic". For this letters, I prefer to use "realism" instead.

Look around you, once you catch the reality that every thing is been made by magic, then there is nothing left to stop you. Once we learn to elicit it is all up to us, somethings may appear more simple.

I am not a wise-old man. Not a teacher, nor a lecturer or angel. I'm just an individual of the whole. A piece of whole that you all are part of. And this letter, is completely been affected by the influence of this perspective. The existence of a "whole" is a beautiful cure to all.

Life, my dear, can be your miracle as well as it can be your hell, heaven, an accidental & experimental world...

But it can also be something you can choose. You can name it.

I've never changed, for I've never changed; I still am the fresh boy who once wrote this page his first entries. And that boy, loves to learn, experience.


"Magic" they say, that is only for magicians to use. I have to be disagree with that. Because what I could have only learned from this journey is, that we are not separated. We are not different at all.

We are all in the same frame that's been created by the tides of our destinies. We are One.

Onuruz